I never thought that I would be able to have a healthy lifestyle without constant struggle and pain, yet here I am doing it one day at a time and by now it just feels like daily life. I feel like I could just do this, I don’t need an end date or free meals or cheats, I’m happy with how things are right now. I’m not deluded enough to think that I will always feel this way or that I won’t slip up or struggle, but for now, things are good. Sore, but good.

One thing that I think may not be the best, though, is that I’ve started feeling once again that I don’t expect to see changes. When I wake up in the morning and look in the mirror I’ve stopped looking for what might be different. On Mondays I expect that my weight and measurements will have gone down but I don’t expect myself to look any different. Is that normal?