It’s time to start again. I’ve had so many things on my mind and so many things changing in my life that weight loss has taken a backseat. It’s been a good thing, though, because my weight hasn’t been the only thing changing, I’m changing too. I’m growing and working through the process of emerging adulthood. It’s a hard process but I think I’m finally starting to like myself again. That might be a whole post of it’s own…
Yet, because of all the other things on my mind, I haven’t really lost much weight this year. I’ve only lost about 20lbs in my second year of weight loss and I’m almost at the six month point in this year (July 25). I don’t want to get to the end of my second year at this and still not be even close.
It’s time to finish this thing. At approximately 225lbs I’m about half way through with the weight loss and I think that I’m ready to get there. I’d like to move on to the next stage and shift my focus from weight loss to making myself the healthiest Kendra I can be… and the hottest too, of course!
I’m excited for the next stage. I hope that at that stage I’ll be willing and able to try a wider variety of exercises. I hope that clothing will fit and look better. Mostly, I hope that I’ll look in the mirror and smile.
I’d like to find out what life is like apart from being the fat girl and/or the girl who is losing weight. I’d like to find out what life is like when weight isn’t necessarily an issue. To do either of these things, though, I have to get this second half finished. So, I’m starting again.
I’ve been thinking about what I did in the early months that was different from what I’ve been doing since. What was it that made me lose weight so much faster in those early months?
Effort.
I didn’t run long distances, nor did I run fast but I ran consistently. I got out there and did it whether it sucked or not. Often, it sucked. Interestingly, though, suddenly it didn’t.
I was committed (and boy problem free…) and that’s what I need to get back to again (except for the boy problem part, I’m quite fond of the problem boy). That whole “no sugar, little alcohol, no high GI foods” thing really works. So, I’m going back to it for a while. It’s going to be hard thanks to my new-found love for tequila (thank you SO MUCH my certain someone for that! Douche…) but putting off instant gratification will be worth it in the long run. It has been thus far.
Monday, yes this Monday I’ll be back at it. There will once again be weekly goals, multiple runs a week, healthy eating and drinking, no sugar, and focus on the overall goal. We’ll actually have something besides my dumbassery to discuss again! I hope you’re as excited as I am.
Don’t worry, we’ll still discuss some of my dumbassery, it’s not like I’m short on material. Besides, I do have that tequila story to tell you.
Um… back on topic…
I’ll go back to what I did at the beginning. No sugar, alcohol, or high GI foods for a few weeks. I think I’ll try to make it through the 31st of July before I ease up again and allow for a little more flexibility. I’ll work my way back up to working out five times a week again. I’ll get this sucker back on the road. I’ll also blog and bitch about it all the while.
I’m feeling that same level of resolve that I did in the beginning of this shindig and I’m confident in my ability to follow through with it. While it might be a bit of a bummer at parties, there will always be future parties and future fun. Really, there will be more fun because of it.
While I think I needed the time to focus more on my inner self and the changes and growth I was experiencing, it’s time now to get back on track and go for the next round. It’s time for new play lists, recipes, and strength training routines. It’s time to look forward to the future.
It’s also time to go sing Unwritten at the top of my lungs because I really can’t ever seem to get enough of that song despite its moderate to severe cheesiness.
