Today was my first day back a work and the first day trying to squeeze in a workout after work. I really didn’t want to do either. It did feel strangely good to be back at work though. I didn’t expect that. I thought I was going to have to drag myself in, mentally kicking and screaming. No such thing, I was glad to be back and to see everyone and even to actually do the work I am supposed to do. My voice was not too steady and I had to take a few breaks because it was going a few times but overall it was a pretty good night.

After work I went to work out and for that I did have to drag myself mentally kicking and screaming. I was so tired that all I wanted to do was collapse. I didn’t do quite as much as yesterday because I was just feeling pooped but I did do 20 minutes total. Incidentally, I discovered that “Don’t Stop Me Now” by Queen is a perfect song to run to at 5.0 mph. “Mr. Brightside” by The Killers is also perfect. I need to find a few more songs like that because it was so much easier to run when I had the perfet beat to run to.

I tried to incorporate more calories today and although I ate a good deal more food, my caloric intake didn’t increase that much. I am going to revamp the diet a bit on Monday when I am officially done with Phase One, but for Saturday and Sunday I think that I will just eat per my appetite, which I think is what I am supposed to do anyway.

While I was at the gym tonight, I was having a general feeling of discouragement. I don’t know why, perhaps it was just tiredness. I get that way every once in a while, it’s just how I am. Everything feels like it isn’t going how it should and then in a day or two I snap out of it. I know that I’m doing great and continuing to make progress and getting healthier, not just losing weight. I have so much to celebrate but I just don’t feel it right now. Tomorrow will be a busy day so I need to finish up things and go to sleep.