Sunday Night Pre-Weigh In:
I’m about 90% sure that I’m going to have gained an absurd amount of weight back and I’m okay with that. These last few weeks have been some of the hardest times I’ve been through in a long time. Every day has been a fight to not let the emotions of it all overwhelm me and I’m going to give myself some grace for whatever the result of this struggle might be.
Backtracking sucks, sure, but coming out of this whole thing a whole, healthy person is so much more important than keeping off a few pounds. Sure, I might be discouraged a little bit by what I see on the scale tomorrow but I’ll deal with it, get through it, and conquer it. I’m stronger than I feel and a few pounds aren’t going to change that.
Monday morning Post-Weigh In:
Yeah, it felt a little brutal but not nearly as bad as it could have been. Oddly, these pounds feel a little bit like battle wounds. I suppose that this all goes back to how my body tells my story. While it means that I’ll have to redo some of the work I’ve done, I think that I’m going to be okay with that for once. I hate redoing work of any sort. I’m a brat like that.
Today was the first day in a long time that I woke up without a feeling of impending doom. It was nice.
Let’s talk goals!
I debated over whether or not to even set goals this week since, really, the goal is “just get through this” but I think I want to give myself something to focus on. It will probably be helpful.
This Week’s Goals
1. Start strength training again: I guess this is part of the whole green tea and running thing. Right now what I’m craving is not a good run but the push of strength training. There’s just something about the struggle that sounds really appealing right now. Hello, getting out aggression?
2. Avoid high GI foods: This time it’s not even about weight loss, it’s about anxiety. I’ve noticed a marked difference in my anxiety levels and emotions when I’m eating foods that are low sugar. I guess this one really kills two birds with one stone.
3. Get my apartment back in order: It’s a mess. It’s never a mess. I’ve been a mess, though, so cleaning was not high on my priority list. Granted, my version of a mess isn’t exactly a real mess but the clutter is driving me even crazier.
4. Drink water like an elephant: The other night I woke up absolutely parched and realized that I definitely haven’t been drinking enough water.
So, what are your goals for the week?